Girl, Azure Arnot
After Sally Wen Mao
All I remember is the glare
of cameras. Every mouth I’ve met
is a flight risk which is to say that no one will kiss me
offscreen. Instead, I am propped
up against a slick of women.
Men like me most
this way: a duplicate, voice drowned
out by the masses. They marvel
at the comma-curve of my back, the hairlessness
of my limbs. I am best when shaved
into something digestible. I never stick
in the clutch of a throat. They insert
my face into a TIME centerfold & joke
that this is affirmative action. The truth is I am not good enough
to play myself in films because my skin
is likened to jaundice — who could love an
affliction? I am an illness
which is to say I did this
to them. The enemy
bears a striking resemblance to me. A man says
he wants to watch me unravel in a shallow pool of rain. I know better
than to call it a tragedy — this is just Thursday.
If I could speak, I’d say when the little match girl immolates
be courteous & watch.
About the Author
Jasmine Cui · Emory University
Jasmine Cui is a Political Science and Economics student at Emory University. She is the Founder and Co-Editor-in-Chief of The Ellis Review. “Anna May Wong Stars in a Silent Film” first appeared in Gandy Dancer.
About the Artist
Azure Arnot · Suny Geneseo
Azure Arnot is a maker and doer. Much of her printmaking is about the unseen meanings and creating beautiful pieces that can be both appreciated for their beauty as well as theirs second meaning. You can find her online at azurearnot.com or on Instagram at @azurearnot “Girl” first appeared in Gandy Dancer.