Rose-Covered Glasses, Margaret Wright
TW: Childhood Trauma
When I was six, my mother made an elegy
out of stitched pictures punctured
straight through the cork board
in our front hallway hanging
beneath the sign that read
“For I Know The Plans I Have for You
Declares the Lord.”
I asked my mother if those “plans”
had anything to do with why the neighbor
lost his mind to alzheimers
or why the cherry tree we planted outside
our house could poison humans but not
animals and she said she didn’t know.
Or maybe it was “Lord only knows.”
At Sunday School I asked my youth pastor
the same questions: “how is it that our physical
bodies can choose to give out on us and who
decides how many cherries kill humans
because I had three and my lungs are still
pumping.” He said God delivers all his children
from darkness into light.
I then asked God my bigger questions:
why do some people get to forget?
how come the cherries didn’t poison me?
will you punish the three older kids who
told me I was a pussy if I didn’t strip
down and play along with them?
will You still let me into heaven?
1 Corinthians 6:9-10 “Do you not know
that the unrighteous will not inherit
the kingdom of God?” but I was six
and there was already a little girl hiding
behind the white door of the basement
closet when I realized how dirty my bare
body looked in the dimmed basement lighting.
Sunday School teaches you that sexual immorality
is not of God but they don’t tell you
when you’re six how to make more room
in the hallway closet or that sometimes
your elders are more corrupt than you so
you probably shouldn’t listen to them when
they say just pretend it’s a dream.
Instead, you find out through newspaper
headings that:“Local Youth Pastor
Cheated on Pregnant Wife” and you can’t help
but thank God because when you’re six it’s
nice to know that cherry trees and alzheimers
don’t kill as quickly as putting faith in the wrong
About the Author
Payton Emond · Lewis University
Payton Emond is an emerging young poet who grew up in the Northwest suburbs of Chicago. She graduated from Lewis University as a 4-year student athlete with a degree in Professional Writing and a minor in Organizational Communications. Emond also worked as a poetry editor for Lewis Universities literary journal, Jet Fuel Review, which received a Pinnacle award from the College Media Association for “Literary Magazine of the Year.” Her work appears in UIW’s Quirk and Windows Fine Arts Magazine. This piece first appeared in Windows Fine Arts Magazine.
About the Artist
Margaret Wright · Christian Brothers University
Margaret Wright is a Visual Arts major at Christian Brothers University with a concentration in Graphic Design. Although she loves and studies design, Margaret has a soft spot for experimental and traditional art mediums. She hails from Memphis, TN and has had a passion for painting, crafting, and writing from a very young age. Wright finds nature and people as the inspiration for many of her works. This piece first appeared in Castings.